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[30 Jun 2005|01:19am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Well, I just got home from a very long day.
I have everything I want as in items, but what I want in my heart, isnt there.
I am looking for it and I think I may have found it, Im not sure yet.
Im still trying to figure everything out..

But right now I am happy with how I am, Im working on a few things, but I am happy.
That is all that should really matter..

I hung out with Amanda today, I had so much fun we bought lotion and spray stuff from victorias secret, we put on lots of make up at stores<3hahaha<3 she is so awesome, I <3 her<3
We saw the fireworks for like 10 mins<3
They werent that good anyways.

Yesterday was very nice :) I am so tired.
I hate being tired. Iam always tired.
I do love sleeping a lot though.

you asked, so here it is.Collapse )

Smile, because you have to.
bye<3

We kissy kiss in the rear view, we're so bored, you're to blame.♥

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[30 Jun 2005|02:48am]
200 miles away from home.
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs, but you don't care at all.
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs.
You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
But you don't care at all.
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.
Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed.
Please be impressed.
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all, at all.

Hopeless love, please leave me.
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long.
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow.
Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
And now I regret the day we met.
And help me forget your name.






I wont ever be the same.
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For I am Kent? [30 Jun 2005|02:56am]
Can we try? I’ve saved my best for you tonight.
This is the very last day that I have alive, because without you here I die.
So don’t tell me, cause I already know that nothing in the world would mean a single thing,
until you are here with me and I’ve shared it with you.
I need to get these words out before I choke.
This rooms on fire and the headboard to my bed is broken…
And so am I.
From all these nights, that I’ve spent alone.
I should have known, if I let you into my heart, that you would be tearing it down from the start.
Grab a map to see how close we really are, and pretend that I feel blessed but I know that I’m not because your leaving.
Underneath the shade of this tree, please look me in the eyes and tell me you love me because I need to hear that lie.
I need to get these words out before I choke.
This rooms on fire and the headboard to my bed is broken.
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[30 Jun 2005|05:38pm]
[ mood | content ]

So yeah....
Today has been not too bad, there is a show I would really really like to go too, but I dont think I cant. I dont know. I dont want to be a bitch again, so I probably wont go. Unless you can drive my car for me to deliver a car to someone, so I can go. I would LOVE YOU FOREVER<3
But its ok, I will just hang out at home all day, the place I hate most. I was really mean to my mom today, I feel pretty bad about it. But everything is ok between us now. So Im probably going to take a bath, and then nap, or the other way around, Im not sure yet.
After I eat something of course<3

Im sorry; I lied.
Im NOT happy whatsoever, I tried so hard to be, there isnt any way it could work.
I just hope I get what I want.


I wish you could come and play outside in the puddles with me, I would love it.

I dont like when I try to fall asleep, all Della wants to do is annoy me til I kick her out. She is such a bad kitten.



Change of plans<3
Amanda and I are going, we will just leave early<3
It is free<3<3<3<333
how effing awesome<3
I LOVE AMANDA♥

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[30 Jun 2005|11:05pm]
AMANDA + ASHLEY = BESTFRIENDS♥
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