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CHRISTMAS SHOPPING IDEA! [party lite] [03 Dec 2007|07:09pm]
ok so I am hosting a book show.
If you are interested in buying anything go to.. 

I have some books and stuff, if you are interested PLEASE CONTACT ME!
aim- ashleydisaster05
myspace - www.myspace.com/ashleyydisasterr
email- ashleydisaster05@hotmail.com

please let me know, Im closing a few days before christmas, if you need a list of candles, scents, ANYTHING please let me know!<3
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alright. [08 Feb 2007|03:41pm]
[ mood | blank ]

ok. so i thought i had a handle on some things... im guessing yes and no......
um.. i havent really been going the all the meetings i want to go too... like i am so lazy. i dont ever want to get out of bed, all i do is watch tv. like i dont have any motivation. i mean i do... i just dont really want to do anything.. i dont know why this is happening. i want him to get out of there so we can start everything the way its suppost to be. i just dont like how this is turning out right now. i dont know everything is so fucked up and my parents are just making this worse for me. i dont know. i know what i have to do. and i have been doing it mostly i have been reading the book and praying and everything but im not exactly sure if im doing this right. i dont know its just really really really really hard. but its so freaking simple it makes me sick. and i just dont know i am completely clueless at the moment. i want to be with him and thats all i can think about. i am hoping this just isnt the addict talking to me. i hope not so bad because all i want is him and i want to do this with him. well at least have him there for me to talk to not just over the phone but in person i dont know. its been almost 2 weeks and i am going fucking insane. maybe its just the sexual tension between us everytime that we talk. i just miss him so much that i cry alot over it and this is all wrong. i do not need to be caught up in him. i have to do this for myself. i mean i reconize the problem but its not as nearly as bad as anyone else. and yes that is wrong too. i have the problem and its there, i know its there. god please help me.

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[25 Jul 2006|11:53pm]
so yeah my birthday is in like... 5 mins :]]
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[21 Jul 2006|01:33pm]
so im back right...

well i hate being back. well it is nice to be 'home'
only if i had a home to go home to.... if that makes any sence...
ive just been spending tons of army money :D
and i went on a weekend vacation with my 2 bestfriends to ohio<3
I will have pictures soon.

so i have like 5 kittens to be given away<3
let me know if you want one<3

oh and i got a cool phone now..
the number is..
ha like i would really put it on here....

so i have to go and do a bunch of army crap today.. im so going to like leave right after i get my patch and crap. im not staying the night and like doing pt in the morning and stuff no way.
it all depends on how long im going to have to be there...
anyways im getting so fucking annoyed right now so im leaving.
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DELLA HAD KITTENS!! [10 Feb 2006|01:59pm]
my della had kittens!
she had 4 of them!!!!!
they are so cute!<3<3

let me know if anyone wants one<3
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PICTURE POST<3<3//comments please<3 [08 Jan 2006|03:30pm]
[ mood | sore ]

opps; for once it REALLY WAS NOT my fault :]] Im so sorry my baby :[[Collapse )

now; lets have a party!Collapse )

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[20 Dec 2005|05:22pm]
i have new pictures up on myspace too<3 comment please
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[20 Dec 2005|02:21pm]
[ mood | tired ]

a few pictures the rest will be uploaded when paint wants to work or i have a few hours to waste.Collapse )

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[30 Nov 2005|03:45pm]
im leaving now.
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[26 Nov 2005|05:20pm]
so everything looks to be figured out.
i just have to make all of the changes.
which is going to be so hard to do.

i wish i could just be that girl once again.
the happy one who always kissed him back.

i hate myself right now.
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[22 Nov 2005|02:47pm]
it sucks to cry so much.

it sucks because i just dont know what to do anymore.
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[21 Nov 2005|09:17am]
[ mood | lazy ]

I really miss when the 5 of us would just hang out all day and all acutally get along and just have so much fun.
I hate to see how everyone changed so much.
Seriously, all of us are so different now.
some of us changed for the bad.
some of us for the good.
I needed to leave, I needed to straighten out my plans.
and once I did that when i thought everything was going to be ohkay again.
everything crashed right before my heart broke in a million pieces.
I will always love the 3 of you boys.
because you guys were there for everything.
Im glad I can at least talk to one of you with out wanting to pull all of my hair out.
Im glad your my best friend.
I love you a lot. :D

I cant wait to leave here.
Im going to join some kind of military branch
I just cant decide right now.
I dont want anyone trying to talk me down about this either.
I think I could do it and be happy.

harley and della are having kitty sex.

they will have the cutest kittens ever.
I will be giving them away, so if you want one tell me :D

im going back to sleep for a bit.
good morning.

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[20 Nov 2005|04:27pm]
i just figured i should quit.
i do have a lot ahead of me.
and i am happy how i am right now.

i know that no one understands most of the stuff i say, but i like it that way, i dont want everyone knowing exactly what happened and how it did.
because usually i get really upset over stupid things and i found out that is just stupid in the first place.
so im just going to be a nice happy girl.

im going rollerblading<3
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[19 Nov 2005|04:19pm]
my della baby is in heat.
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[16 Nov 2005|09:02pm]
i pretty much ran away for a day.
it was nice.
the problem was, i wasnt happy.

i dont know.

well i have a horrible headache
and i worked out for 5 hours today
help me please.
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[12 Nov 2005|05:51pm]
so far today is a pretty good day<3

I hope everyone has a good day<3

im going to take a shower now.... any one want to join me?

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[11 Nov 2005|01:18pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]


sorry about the picture quality. its a 199? webcam, what do you expect.
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[11 Nov 2005|09:37am]
so i guess its cool to act like a little kid?
not at all.
i hate it when stupid people try to be cool and scene when they know they wont ever be anything but a lame ass who only makes minimum wage.

or even when..
they have one person that loves them more than anything and they just simply dont care.
that is what bothers me most.
when people waste love.
when someone can be made so happy and they just dont even care.
when that happens.... it makes me want to kill myself..

i dont know what is going on with my sister.
which worries me.

della is so cute.
i love her so much.
but yet, if anyone wants her, let me know.
you can have her.

sometimes i feel like i just dont know what to do anymore. like when i think it just hurts.
when i think all it does is cause pain.
i hate thinking.
or just maybe the things i think about are whats really bothering me.
who really cares though right?
i mean i can count on one hand of the people that i love and care about not including family. but that is horrible.

im begining to think i have nothing.

oh i got into HFCC!
i probably wont even go there.
i dont know why i wasted so much time trying to get in.

i want to go in the military.
i believe that would do me so much good.
well im sick of all of this.
so im leaving.

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[10 Nov 2005|05:43pm]
well my car is fine now.
i still want to sell it.
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[09 Nov 2005|12:13pm]
im not sure :-/

andrea was in my dream last night<3
im not sure why or anything, i just remember her.

i have to take my mom shopping now.
i hate driving her everywhere..


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